Introspection
Be brutal in dissecting and analyzing the true nature of your emotions. I am gonna stop living up to my reputation, especially when I have to dissect my emotions, feelings, and reactions about everything. I want to dissect them and analyze for its true nature..where it comes from? Is it dark? Is it because I feel insignificant? Or am I feeling jealous? Is it my frustration because things are not going my way? Is it lust-related resentment? Doing this introspection without mixing my conditioned self that thinks what's just and unjust or without the influence of my beliefs about possession of a certain reputation or some illusionary holiness.